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The last one for now.......

To go or not to go? That's the question

I did a lot of household this afternoon, but surely not enough. But at least I'm up to date with my laundry again. But after finishing and sitting on the sofa my mind went the wrong way. There is nobody stopping me from going to the pub. I even allow it myself, but do I want to. Doesn't that make things harder. And then I got this feeling of guilt comming over me. But going to the pub is just one of my excuses. So I decided not to tempt myself and started looking for a nice recipe to cook.

Chicken brest in bacon with a creamy portsauce.

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The sauce for some reason did not go that well. I made a similar sauce before without a recipe and that was much better. And I shouldn't have added any more oregano or it would have been too much. But it was nice to cook and good enough to enjoy. I'm leaving this one in my book.

Kipfilet in bacon met een romige portsaus

Tonight it will be watching a movie again after a quick call to my parents. I haven't spoken to them since I'm back from Germany so I guess they want to know how it was.

4 Amstel and a Sloeber

A quick look in my refrigerator tells me I've still got 4 Amstel beers and one Sloeber and still two days to go from the date I want to give up drinking for a while. But I managed not to buy any beer today, so I'm hoping that this will be it.

It's now 4 o'clock which I would consider to be "beer o'clock" so instead of taking one, I took the photo and started blogging.

I do not consider myself to be an alcoholic, although the last few month I was drinking to much. More like a habit of cosiness. But since I have depressions for the last couple of years (even in my dry period) I'm getting a new antidepressant and sleeping pill in one. It's new on the market and non addictive, so it sounds perfect to me. But I need to be dry for at least two weeks and then off course stay that way while I'm taking that drug.

I took the first step by telling my friends that I can not drink anymore after april 1st. I'm hoping they can and will help me. But this weekend will be my first test. We are going to do maintenance on two boats, and normally there is enough beer to make the work pleasant. But not for me this time...

Today I did not do very much. Went to work for an hour, picked up some catfood for a friend, cleaned the house a bit and did my tax return. For the rest I've been reading another friends blog.

Tonight I will take a long bath and watch a movie "Red eye" with a beer!

Berlin

A friend of mine asked me to come to Berlin with him since he had to go there for work. I took me a couple of days to decide if I should go or not. I had lots of reasons not to go, but friends and work convinced me that I should go so I went.

March 24
After a long drive we arrived at our hotel in Schöneberg-Berlin at 1am, which was in the middle of the gay-scene of Berlin. So after checking in we went for a drink.

March 25

Waking up early the next morning we looked up what we could do. We both decided we needed a haircut so after breakfast we went looking for a hairdresser. Not being able to find one in time for my friends appointment at the theater we went to centre of Berlin and had lunch there. Once my friend was working I had some time to walk around and take some pictures and found I hairdresser which looked ok. After my friend was ready we went there for a haircut and had diner. With just a little time to spare, we went for a short walk and then to the theater for the premiere of a show called Versus. After the show it was back to the hotel and enjoying the nightlife.

March 26

The next morning we got out of bed a bit later (thank god) had breakfast and did some shopping. We decided to go to the sony center, which is a big complex owned by Sony and has a Sony store, but they were rebuilding the shop and so they were closed. From there we went to monument for the murder Jewish and  Brandenburger Tor where we tried to take a city tour by bus but we were to late. So we walked a bit and went back to the hotel and had diner and as you can guess by now enjoyed the nightlife again till late in the morning.

March 27

On our last day in Berlin we had another visit to the theater planned. Qi a huge production with a lot of technical elements. After the show we still had some time to go to Check Point Charlie and the Currywurst museum. Being it our last day we had a simple diner and went out for a couple drinks to be in bed on time.

Mach 28
When I woke up and wanted to see what time it was, I was unpleasantly surprised to see a warning on my phone that it switched to sumer time. But we got out of bed on time, took a shower and were to early for breakfast, so we decided to just get something whilst being on the way. The trip home went as smooth as the trip to Berlin so we where back on time.
I really had the time of my live and it did me more good then I was hoping for. I started to feel a bit like myself again for part of the time.