Today was another stressful day. I thought I did almost all the work yesterday and just had some details to cover today, when disaster stroked. I tried using an existing peace of code, but it turned out there where 3 different type of structures which are the same. Confused? Well I was. It’s the same as training three puppies with the same name. You never know which one is responding to your commands.
But I managed to get it all ready on time, at least that’s what I thought. So I asked a colleague, who needs to test my work anyway, to go over the issues. Then she reminded me that I forgot one big part. Oh ……….. After a few words which I will not repeat, I started to work on that one. But with the code being so crappy already I was kind of lost. Skipped lunched and tried to finish it anyway. Thank god I met here when she went for lunch and asked me if I was going to make it. With pain in my hard I had to tell here it was trouble. Just around 2:30 pm she sends me an email that the later issue can wait. I checked my work in and we made a release…. I did it.. Well part of it anyway, but I was completely empty. So time for my normal walk, and during that walk it hit me. But that has to wait.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Long time...
This week two of my friends asked me why I wasn’t writing in my blog anymore. Well, one thing, I didn’t know people still checked my blog from time to time. But they wanted to hear some of the fun stories as well. Although today’s story isn’t a really happy one, it was a good enough reason to write another blog entry.
A lot of things happened the last few month. A lot of very good things like getting a relation again, and been on a few holidays. But my new boyfriend was about to get married and decided that I was the man he wanted to grow old with and so ended his relationship. With that came a lot of problems on his, but some of it on my path as well. One of the things is that he needed a place to live and was looking for a place very near to my place. Since they still own a house, he has to rent a studio or something. In a lot of those studio’s dogs or cats are not allowed. At one time I said to him not to worry about the dog. In the worst case scenario I might take him, but at the end the worst case scenario became the reality. And he popped the question if I still wanted to have the dog. With only a few hours to decide I had to say no. I really had trouble with that, but with the live I have at the moment and still getting over the depression, I had to decide that it was not really an option for me.
A few days later I had to end the relation all together. That had to do with all the trouble and not having the change to really get to know him on a relaxed and funny way. All together, the door to my hard closed on him. And me for that matter, since it felt like I was going into a depression again.
We still have some contact, but haven’t seen each other until yesterday. I appears that he finally found a place to live, and someone who will take the dog. But his big wish was to have a good photo of him. So I promised him I would try to make that picture. I became a emotional day.
Before I start a shoot I just like to sit and relax a bit, but he was very nervous about seeing me again. So after some questions and then long periods of silence again, I started to take some photos. After a few shoots and beers in between he started to loosen up. We had a good chat about what was and what wasn’t. We bought some pizza’s for diner and watched a movie. It’s still very hard for him to see me as a friend, so I know I will have to limit our contact for some time. And we he busted out in tears in my arms I had my own doubts again. Still I’m sure I made the right decision, but it felt weird.
Today was a very mixed day. Tired of yesterday and my “not sleeping” again. But also thinking about the dog, and that it really was the last time I’ve seen him. And me and the dog where…… well I never had that much feelings for a dog. And a reasonable amount of pressure at work, made it a very unpleased day for me. So the first thing I did was switching on the computer and picked on photo of the dog to put in this blog. It did work out the way I wanted, but still it’s a nice picture which made me feel proud and a bit happy again.
A lot of things happened the last few month. A lot of very good things like getting a relation again, and been on a few holidays. But my new boyfriend was about to get married and decided that I was the man he wanted to grow old with and so ended his relationship. With that came a lot of problems on his, but some of it on my path as well. One of the things is that he needed a place to live and was looking for a place very near to my place. Since they still own a house, he has to rent a studio or something. In a lot of those studio’s dogs or cats are not allowed. At one time I said to him not to worry about the dog. In the worst case scenario I might take him, but at the end the worst case scenario became the reality. And he popped the question if I still wanted to have the dog. With only a few hours to decide I had to say no. I really had trouble with that, but with the live I have at the moment and still getting over the depression, I had to decide that it was not really an option for me.
A few days later I had to end the relation all together. That had to do with all the trouble and not having the change to really get to know him on a relaxed and funny way. All together, the door to my hard closed on him. And me for that matter, since it felt like I was going into a depression again.
We still have some contact, but haven’t seen each other until yesterday. I appears that he finally found a place to live, and someone who will take the dog. But his big wish was to have a good photo of him. So I promised him I would try to make that picture. I became a emotional day.
Before I start a shoot I just like to sit and relax a bit, but he was very nervous about seeing me again. So after some questions and then long periods of silence again, I started to take some photos. After a few shoots and beers in between he started to loosen up. We had a good chat about what was and what wasn’t. We bought some pizza’s for diner and watched a movie. It’s still very hard for him to see me as a friend, so I know I will have to limit our contact for some time. And we he busted out in tears in my arms I had my own doubts again. Still I’m sure I made the right decision, but it felt weird.
Today was a very mixed day. Tired of yesterday and my “not sleeping” again. But also thinking about the dog, and that it really was the last time I’ve seen him. And me and the dog where…… well I never had that much feelings for a dog. And a reasonable amount of pressure at work, made it a very unpleased day for me. So the first thing I did was switching on the computer and picked on photo of the dog to put in this blog. It did work out the way I wanted, but still it’s a nice picture which made me feel proud and a bit happy again.
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