Just Tired

I don’t know why but lately I’m feeling tired again to the extreme. Alright, I don’t sleep very well either. But that’s something I’m used to, so why is it so much more different now than normal.


After breaking up with my boyfriend I went into a downer again, but managed to get out of it. Too bad that he kept making contact so it became a big struggle to stay out of that depression mode. But other than that I was just doing great. I loved doing another job next to my own for a couple of days, although it was extreme busy handling both jobs at once, but it kind of boosted me. At the same moment I started to do inquiries for a new mortgage and looking forward to my trip to the UK to have a party with my friends there. So pretty good I would say. All I can think of now is that it might have been too much, but it sure doesn’t feel that way. Just tired, a bit down because I want to feel more lively, but not a depression. And since I’ve been there I know how that feels.

Problem now is that by feeling me this way I’m not really willing to do any socials events anymore. One thing I have to watch out for! So I decided yesterday to just join my friends on an annual trip we normally do at Pentecost.

And today I just wanted to cook again. I do normally cook but then simple. Not that it wasn’t simple this time, it was just time consuming. Cajun style pork filet, with spinach covered with a poached egg and real English bacon and some roast potatoes. It was great and although I normally would eat more, it really filled me up. Which made me feel tired again, but I guess that is to be expected. And afraid to fall asleep on the coach I decided to clean up the kitchen again, since it looked like a war zone, and take a shower. At the moment I felt a little bit more alive again, so it was time to wright this blog.