Amsterdam

The whole week has been an weird experience for me with very good and some what more tougher challenges. As you might have seen in the previous blog I had to rate my days at regular intervals. Well it's lower in the mornings and getting better during the day. At least for most of the days since Wednesday was kind of an off day.

On Friday we had a goodbye party where I put on clothes I would never thought about taking that to work. But it's part of who I am and it's time that I show a little bit more of my personal live as well.

I managed to keep my mind clear when an old acquaintance called me in distress. I can not handle other peoples trouble at the moment and so I chose for myself. I had to tell him that, but at first he did not wanted to listen at all. But I was not to take the blame for his own trouble.

Yesterday I went to Amsterdam with a good friend to have a chat and drink on a terrace and shopped for my birthday present. That talking did me good, he saw some changes in the way I behave at the moment and was very proud that I'm doing so well. But since I had relapses before I know I need to be very careful with what I do and how I do things. And after that talk he made me overcome another personal boundary.

For the coming week there is only one thing I need to do. Keep up going the way I'm doing now, and that must be an easy task.