Today's score

For therapy I have to keep a score of how I'm feeling on fixed moment during the day. The idea is that you can influence you're feelings and so by measuring them you can learn what is making the changes or where you can make some changes.

6 - This morning I did not start to best. I had a good night sleep but with the weirdest dreams. In one of them I was on a sinking boat, but in a very tight position and not very easy to get off. I had to decide if I had to go over other people's heads, and life's for that matter, to get myself out safely. On my way to work I was not very awake and started asking myself how it comes my mate is so distant the last few weeks.

7 - Work went great, and I got over the feelings in the morning. I had more for lunch then the last few weeks, and everything felt kind of normal again.

7 - Once home I did some work on the balcony and cleaned my cupboards, well half of them anyway, the rest is for tomorrow. But it kept me busy and happy. Cleaned the coffee machine as well and some other little tasks. Even found the time to enjoy the sun once it started shining. But after diner my mind tried to get me in the wrong direction again. Think it's is because like most people, I feel tired after a meal. So that's why there is a 7 for the afternoon and not a 8.

I also had a conversation with my boss, which was also a good experience. He is really pointing out to me to keep and take it easy, and with the first sign of things going the wrong direction, to just take my time. But we also discussed me getting my old responsibilities back, one thing I'm very eager about. But that still has to wait, until we both are sure I've got the strength again.