Changes...

Not sure about the title yet. A lot has happend since the last blog, mainly in my mind.

The bumb realy bursted the last time, and I tried to let my friends into what is going on in my mind. But that is one thing I can not (yet) do apperently. Not sure if it worked out wright or wrong, but it made me look at the world different. I've been holding on to a fairytail far to long, but was afraid to let go. Afraid of the big unknown. Well I did, al least I'm trying very hard and it does do some things with me. At first it made me feel empty and even more scared. Now I try to think more like "who cares", "let go" and "take it easy, take it as it comes". And that changed my view of live and the world. I see things different again, think more in perspective.

Surely I'm far from there yet, but that's where therapy helps. It's an online therapy. It's official and I've got my own therapist whith whome I talk. I can do therapy whenever I want, and he will respond within a working day later. It works for me, since writing is easier then talking for me. Other thing is that I have thereapy twice a week, and that for 13 to 20 weeks. So it's more intens than the traditional therapy.

Our last session was heavy and I showed him one of my blog items. I was about to stop blogging, but he wants me to continue eventhough I have a hard time dealing with some of the responces. That is something that will be dealed with in the last part of the therapy and where we are putting most of the empasish on.

But all by all, I'm feeling a great deal better then before. Just need to be aware of the pitfalls since I've been there too often at the moment.

But first.... I will enjoy the sun on my balcony :)