I don't care

My new look at live has all to do with a "I don't care" kind of attitude. It's not that I do not care, I'm just taking it more relaxed, a bit more emotionally detached. But it's not coming naturally and so it takes some effort to keep that thought alive.

Last weekend I had a weird phone call with an old friend and he tried to make me feel guilty about some things. The "new" me reacted and told him the truth. Well emotionally that went great, but my body responded by starting to shake and I got nauseous again. I discussed that a few days later with the companies doctor and she explained to me that it perfectly normal. It are the hormones that kick in and my body respond to it. Taking a walk or doing something physical should help me out. She also explained that it will get less after I'm used again to handle these kind of situations.

At this very moment my house is one big mess, and I don't care. I have to clean it up the next coming days since I will have visitors staying over for a few days. I'm going to celebrate my birthday on a small island with 30 people, so a lot of things need to be sorted. It's really fun to try and think about all the things you need and so on and I think I managed to get it all. If not, I don't care. It will be a great party anyway with almost all my close friend.