Loneliness

Loneliness

Yesterday was a touch day for me. Normally on Friday we meet with a group of friends in the pub and get some dinner. But both of my friends were occupied and so I was on my own. I ended up going to the pub in the afternoon anyway to have some company. I was not sure if it had to do with not drinking or not, I was just not getting along so I went home and did some shopping and made dinner. Thank god one of my other friends was on line and I had a little chat with him, since my mind was going in all the directions I do not want it to go. I really felt like going back to the pub and get a beer and some fun. I decided to send a text message to my mate asking him to call me once he had the time, but he never called, which made me feel on my own again. After a few tears I went to bed and had a bad night as usual.

At then moment I'm not feeling all to well, but that's normal after a bad night and I know it will go away after a couple of hours. I'm planning on going to Amsterdam and meet a friend there. Hoping that will do me some good and give me some distraction.

There was some good this week as well. I've been working on another wall picture which I'm very proud of at the moment. But there are a few things in there which are personal to me, so I'm not ready to post it here yet.