Thea....

Since the battery of my bike is flat, my best friend came over to pick me up. We went to the harbor where they were doing maintenance on two boats. We needed some materials so from there I went with somebody else to do some shopping. Once we got back it’s started to rain and time to go home for dinner with the whole group. That’s where the rest started drinking. In the beginning it was no issue for me. But after dinner it became hard…. A lot of thing where going to my mind:


- Why can’t I just have a drink?
- What’s wrong with me?
- Will I ever feel happy again?

And a few more, but those where the main things going through my mind. And with that came a headache and all the depressive feelings again. I tried hard not to get grumpy. Thank god I know why I’m doing this and I can still see the benefits. The crave for a drink wasn’t to bad.

Coming home I had to write this blog. I started with tears in my eyes, but at the moment I feel more positive again. And who would have thought that I would drink a relaxing thea in the evening. I’m actually proud of myself.

Tomorrow they start working again in the morning, but I told my mate that I don’t think I can make that. Sleep is the most important thing at the moment, and my biggest issue. So I will come whenever I’m ready and not sooner.

Well time to relax on bed with another episode of Star Trek…..