Things are getting tougher and tougher for me right now. I have not been feeling to great since Thursday, not sure if it is a side effect from the medication or just the lack of sleep.
Friday was a relaxed evening. I had a drink on the terrace with a friend and we went for chinese food after that and watched some television.
On Saturday I wanted to go into town, but went to a friend first. We ended up doing some shopping and made diner at another friends place. We talked about a sailing weekend we do every year but I can not say if I will be there this year. All because I do not sleep and it's very frustrating if you're on a small boot with people sleeping next to you. And if I get some sleep it's in the mornings when they wake up. Well sleeping so light as I do it's impossible to get some rest then. But after telling that I realized that it's now becoming a handicap and has a huge impact on my social live.
I had to be convinced to go to the boat today where we put on the sails and made a small sailing trip. But I was really drowsy, with lead in my eyelids and legs like straws. I think I went on auto pilot and just did my thing, but my mind was nowhere and everywhere in the same time and not in the mood for small talk or anything for that matter.
Once at home I had diner and took a bath, hoping to get my head a bit more clear and feeling more relaxed and happy. But even that did not help. At this very moment I do not know what I want anymore! Yes, I do know what I want just not sure how to get there and not sure if this is the way to go since it's really ..................
I have to stop now, since I can not even handle myself....
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