April 1

No it's not a joke, today is the day where I'm trying to make some changes in my live.

I had a good sleep although there where some weird dreams and trouble getting out of bed, which is nothing unusual. Went to work where another colleague who is recovering from a burnout like me, wanted to talk to me. But at that time it was raining and there where no "private" spaces left in the office. So we postponed it to next week. And once the rain was cleared I went in to town and got myself swimming trunks, since I want to go swimming again and my old one is not very good anymore. Since my mind was going into negative thoughts again this morning, I could use the distraction. Bought some other stuff as well and some t-shirts for my mate.

In the afternoon I finally cleaned up my office at home a bit. There where still a lot of tools hanging around from when I was decorating a few weeks ago. I still have to do some little things, but that's for later. The more troubling part came after I set on the sofa. There was nothing more I wanted to do, so I got bored and wanted a .... I know the first few weeks are the worst and I was not to give in on my first day! I'm to proud of myself. So I went to my kitchen and started to figure out what to have for diner. I had almost all the stuff for stir-fried Tori Teriyaki. An easy to make dish and it tasted very good. But I had to clean the kitchen afterward.

I survived the afternoon, but what will the evening bring? There is a movie on the TV so I guess I will watch that one. It's more the upcoming weekend I'm scared about and really not looking forward to. Come to think of it, I'm having trouble with weekends for a long time know. Maybe something for me to think about and try to come up with an answer to why.

Big Daddy